@ayesuppose I need a break!

Image by William Loyd

If you’ve been following this journey, you might recall that I’ve been dealing with mysterious digestion issues for years now. It’s gotten to a point that I cannot power through it. Being in a place where I’m not capable of doing things I want to do the way I want to do them is incredibly frustrating, I put everything I have into it, but I don’t get that back.  On the outside, I look super strong, but whenever I try to race my body reminds me that something is seriously wrong. 

The team has been super supportive and while I’ve been really hard on myself about things, they’ve encouraged me to prioritize my health so I can feel good off and on the bike. And honestly, I think we’re all gonna benefit from that. 

I’m on the brink of a solution and I’m hopeful we’re finally nearing the end of this bummer of a situation. In the meantime, I need to find ways to cope. I’ve been baking biscuits, training off-road more, and taking long walks. It’s a waiting game, and I’m overwhelmed, angry, sad, and impatient. I want to race bikes without feeling sick. I dream of feeling good again. 

All this to say, I’ve been challenged to take a social media break, and honestly, I think it’s worth a go! There are but so many times I can watch dogs “share a little bit of their sunshine with me” in a day without it being pathetic. 

I’m still rolling on two wheels dreaming of glory while I wait for a timeline from the doctor, so if you’re in Girona and you want to ride, hit me up. ayesha@aquickbrownfox.com (since I won’t see my DMs). 

If you enjoy the things I create, I plan to be open and honest about things on my blog. I started feeling really insecure about sharing and stopped using the blog for exactly what it was meant for. I’ll have plenty of time to fill in the gaps, and also talk about my current situation in case it might help someone else experiencing something similar. 

@theeabundanceproject will continue as planned, as will all other AQBF programming. I’m really looking forward to hosting some chill @gozwift rides as well, so I’ll make sure that info finds its way to socials via Thee Abundance Project and @the_blackfoxes. 

I’m not myself these days, and if we’ve interacted and I’ve seemed distant and cold, I promise it’s not personal. I ask that you give me a bit of grace. 

I look forward to seeing ya’ll on the other side!